I Don’t Know Why
Life is interesting sometimes. I thought I knew what was going on. I thought I knew what I was supposed to do. But God stopped that really fast.
After much prayer my wife and I decided to take a full course of American Sign Language at a local college. We were told that because of our age, we could audit the class for the fraction of the cost. However we could only register at the last minute and get in only if there is room and the teacher OKs it. The last minute came but the class was full. However the teacher signed papers anyway letting both my wife and myself in. Everything was going good. Then it happened.
I saw flashes in my eye. Lots of flashes. Sometimes many per hour. So I went to the eye doctor. She said that I needed to see the specialist and that I may need surgery right then and there. Really? How bad could it be? Well, very bad.
Well I saw the specialist, and sure enough he said I needed the operation right then. So I did. After the surgery, I found that I could no longer see out of my right eye and that it would take three weeks for it to heal. I was told that this was serious, and that I must take it easy. This would normally be very difficult for me to do if I haven’t been so sick from the medicine, headaches, being nauseated and I just slept a lot.
I had to drop out of school as my down time would have been through mid-term exams.
So why did this happened? I don’t know. I believed God wanted me to go to school. Why did we, my wife and I had to go through all this? I don’t know. I have thoughts of why, but I really don’t know. Did we do any good? Was there a purpose to this? Yes I believe so, but I don’t know what it was. But to be honest, I don’t have to know.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
Years ago I had a badly infected ulcer on my foot, and for a while just had a hard time healing. One day a friend came to me and told me that he finally turned his life over to Jesus. One reason was because what I was telling him was the same as some guy in California. (That’s nice) Another reason was because of the way I kept trusting in God about my foot. This is good. But I must admit, I don’t understand how that works. But I am very glad it did.
But what about this time? I don’t know. Did my wife and I make an impression on someone that needed it? Maybe.
But here’s another thing that’s happened. Some time after the surgery, I had another appointment with the surgeon. While sitting in the waiting room, I heard a man and a woman talking about ancient technology. I had to speak up.
I told them that the Bible talks about ancient technology. In Job 28:1-5 the Bible talks about mining so far down into the earth that you could feel the heat of the earth. Also in Job 28:10-11, it even sounds like they were using small hydro-electric dams to light the tunnels.
The man then said something about how he thought, that the at the time of The Tower of Babylon, they were judged because the technology was dangerous. I said no, that they were judged because the people were evil, wicked.
Of course I said other things and now there were now least 7 people in the waiting room listening. So because of my eye surgery, I was able to talk about God’s word there. Is there more for me to do? I don’t know. I have no idea. All I can do is to trust God.